im leaving because nobody actually cares about me anymore so bye

sunglasses and advil. last night was mad real

carry on - fun
 
-
 
so guys, this isn't a usual set. it's an apology.
 
i know i haven't been the best anon, i've been very self centered and worried about myself too much. i forget that people actually need me, they need somebody right? i've had people be there for me, but for some reason i haven't been there for anybody and i'm so sorry.
 
this could be a fresh start i guess, i don't wanna delete all my sets but this is a fresh start. i'm going to be here for each and every single one of you guys i promise. you're all going to be my main priority. i will stay up all night if i have too just to put a smile on each one of your faces.
 
so heres my crushtag, www.thiscrush.com/~alexgom3z , i'm using it now for people with issues. if anythings bugging you just write it on my crushtag, i'll make a set every week replying to them and hopefully make things better, or you can just message me directly if you'd prefer that.
 
my polyvore is dedicated to you from now on.
i'm so so so so sorry for being such a crapppy anon.
but i have your back now.
 
alex xx

enough to make my system blow
welcome to the new age, to the new age
welcome to the new age, to the new age
whoa, whoa, I'm radioactive, radioactive
whoa, whoa, I'm radioactive, radioactive
 
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so guys i've been off school sick the past three days, some sort of vomiting bug yuck. i smashed my phone last week and i finally got my baby back yayayayay. so i'll be on kik ; alexg0mez ok c:
 
i haven't been feeling the best lately anyways, sorta bounced back into depression so therefor i made a list of things that make me happy. i'll leave you with that, byee.
 
alex x
 
things that make me happy.
 
- my chicken nuggets of course
- my best friends
- my screwed up relationship that i adore
- my family
- my bed
- baggy t-shirts
- lazy days
- cookie dough icecream
- cute dates
- my dog coco
- my fab gay friends
- cuddles and hugs
- books
- criminal minds
- eminem because his lyrics >
- mumford and sons
- car journeys
- getting new clothes
- instagram
- my darling phone
- my eyes
- scrapbooking
- singing in the shower
- cute pictures with my friends
- late night chats with my mom
- getting a good grade
- going to parties
- having a nice long bath
- when my skin is nice
- painting my nails
- making new friends
- getting new makeup
- when my hair sits right
- feeling like somebody cares
- stupid texts that make me smile/laugh
- old movies { the breakfast club }
- perks.
- logan lerman in general
- concerts
- peanut butter cookies
- comfy pyjamas
- sunshine
- bows
- nice perfume
- pasta
- walking on the beach
- cups of tea in the morning
- tumblr <33333
- being happy in general.

omg, i actually made a set.
i'm sorry for lack of sets,
i'm active though. c:
and replying to messages
sometimes aha.
 
i don't like this set though
idek im being lazy
and listening to the same song
for the past 4 days
 
oooh yeaaaa
dirtbaaaaaaaaaaaaaaag.
oh she doesn't know what she's missing.
 
okay well
i gotta go
@louiswilli4m
message me ya h0e x
 
oh oh and @juhstendrew i watched the host, super confusing but good c:
 
bye guys.
xx

so uh, i guess this is an apology
i've been a terrible anon i know. for those who are close to me you'll know i suffer from depression, bi polar actually. throw teenage hormones in there and what do you get? a disaster of course. i've just had a rough week i guess. everything that anybody, or i did was just wrong in some way. i turned against too many things and got really angry. then after that i'd just break down in tears. my poor knuckles are black and blue because i've been hitting so many things. polyvore used to be an escape for me i guess, i'd come on here to escape all my real life problems and it would help. i'd be distracted, talk to some nice people. but now it seems like nobody really cares anymore. and i've most likely hurt somebodys feelings by saying that but its how i feel. i'm depressing others by being depressed. i don't think a lot of people want anything to do with me anymore. i've snapped at a few people i know.
@ashl3-y , @m4-ri3 i'm sorry girls. i didn't intentionly mean to be harsh, i just snap when i'm in a bad mood, sorry again.
@juhstendrew i talked to you a little bit last night and sort of explained it, thanks for always being there.
@everybodyelse i know i suck, i know i don't talk to people much anymore, because when i do i'm usually happy but it's fake i guess.
 
i just need some time to get my head around things, clear some space. get back to the old me y'know? i just hope people can understand this.
 
i really am sorry.
 
alex x

okay i'm gon' rant now
 
items.
 
- so darling do me a favor, when you sit there and steal all my items could you at least like my set? considering you like the items belonging to it so much. pfft.
 
relationships
 
- so i hate when people are in those relationships where they close off everybody else. they don't talk to other people, they make tons and tons of sets for each other. sure it's cute but you're forgetting your friends and no i'ts not nice and it's hurtful ok.
 
gays
 
- if you know me, you'll know i'm all for gay rights. but three boy anons followed me today and they were all gay. i'm seriously sick of all these desperate girls making sets, complaining about being single. like c'mon please if you're making a boy anon don't make him gay, we have just the right amount okay. like some of my best friends are gay it's just were being crowded by depressed girls who need love idk, this isn't about me because i have somebody.
 
set likers
 
- please stop liking every set i make and then completely ignore me. or when you're supposed to message me back and you like my set and i don't hear from you for hours gah.
 
owning items
 
- did you go out and take a picture of that item? no? well then it's not yours so stfu.
 
in general
 
- polyvores becoming about sets and likes, i miss having friends who would actually talk to me idk okay. CAN WE GO BACK?
 

thats all i guess,
i gotta reply to messages.
owch i'm feisty today
happy monday x

set number two.
 
oh my god
what a day
i dropped my iphone
and it's just
smashed, gone
i swear like fml.
 
and ofc @louiswilli4m laughed at me.
 
so i'm watching comic relief, and it's hilarious awe and harry was crying bless him he's so adorable. so i have to study my favorite person ever shakespeare.yay. i could argue about romeo and juliet all day it just irritates me so much on how he planned their deaths. so yeah i gotta reply to my suoerdupercute messages now.
 
do this?
thiscrush.com/~alexgom3z
 
woo ly.
 
alex xx